At this point in the journey of grief it is not so much the day to day stuff that hurts. It is the little reminders that pop up for me that was the Kennedy specials on TV that I saw this past week. It has been a small thing I could not bring myself to deal with as everything Kennedy makes me think of Amy. It is the small reminder that make me just realize exactly what I have lost. It brings up the saying “you don’t know what you have until it is gone.” And while I said that was not true before Amy died, it really is true. I knew Amy was important, I knew she was speical, I knew I had something special in my realtionship with her. But, when she died, part of me died. I did not realize just how many places and parts of my life Amy had touched.
I do now. I have realized just how important she was and is to me, and I miss her.
